Memories came flashing in since last night, that dream. That dream was not my imagination but what happened in reality. It was the first time we ever spent real time together. My parents just had a fight, my mom kicked my dad out of the house. I remember tears kept pouring out of my eyes, and you were there. Well, not literally. I said I wanted a break and escape all of this. And you asked me to go out. I was down, but you made me laugh, you were so different then. And I just fell for you. So easy.
I remembered all this was just destiny playing us. Living next to each other for thirteen years and finally meeting in high school and becoming best friends, the whole thing was just unbelievable. I really thought you were the one. You were nice to me, you were not shallow, you made me laugh, and much more. But all that was just wrong. Sure you gave me laughter and smiles, but you also gave me sorrow. I remember telling you how I felt, I was wrong to do so. I've been considering it for days whether to tell you. I took the courage and did, but you broke my heart revealing the devil side of you. You left me dead inside. And that was the end of you and me.
Time passed, when will my wound heal? The whole year, I've been ignoring you. I've noticed your stares sometimes, and you noticed mine, but we won't talk. I've been constantly thinking about you, however, finally for a year and a half later, you were completely out of my mind. I felt so relieved and stress free.
I remember calling you accidentally once, you picked up, my heart was beating fast and I was scared. I hung up. Maybe you were still there in my heart but I was just lying to myself. I remember constantly going through my contacts and seeing your name, always don't have the courage to delete it. However, last month, I remember seeing your name, a little hesitant but yet, I managed to delete your number right there at L&L waiting for my takeout. I smiled knowing that was a big step.
But destiny, oh destiny, why? Why give me the dream last night? Why let me remember him? Stupid flashbacks, memories came pouring back into my mind. All the things he have caused me, oh man, why? Why can't I forget about him? Maybe because he's the only guy I've ever been closest to. I seldom go out, maybe I'm just naive. I'm sure in his heart, I'm just a girl who was once his best friend but not anymore. I do regret ever telling him, maybe I could've just liked him and never said anything about it. But won't that be worse? I guess I kinda ruined our friendship, but because of my childish confession, I saw who he really was.
Well, guess there's nothing else to say. I guess he's always gonna be in my heart no matter what, guess I just have to live with it. I guess that's life, remembering someone who have made you happy yet harmed you. I'm still curious, am I still a part of his life? Does he still think about me? Was I just some stupid girl who had a crush on him? Well, guess I'll never know because I'll never have the courage to even say a "hi" to him. Destiny, stop playing me!
I remembered all this was just destiny playing us. Living next to each other for thirteen years and finally meeting in high school and becoming best friends, the whole thing was just unbelievable. I really thought you were the one. You were nice to me, you were not shallow, you made me laugh, and much more. But all that was just wrong. Sure you gave me laughter and smiles, but you also gave me sorrow. I remember telling you how I felt, I was wrong to do so. I've been considering it for days whether to tell you. I took the courage and did, but you broke my heart revealing the devil side of you. You left me dead inside. And that was the end of you and me.
Time passed, when will my wound heal? The whole year, I've been ignoring you. I've noticed your stares sometimes, and you noticed mine, but we won't talk. I've been constantly thinking about you, however, finally for a year and a half later, you were completely out of my mind. I felt so relieved and stress free.
I remember calling you accidentally once, you picked up, my heart was beating fast and I was scared. I hung up. Maybe you were still there in my heart but I was just lying to myself. I remember constantly going through my contacts and seeing your name, always don't have the courage to delete it. However, last month, I remember seeing your name, a little hesitant but yet, I managed to delete your number right there at L&L waiting for my takeout. I smiled knowing that was a big step.
But destiny, oh destiny, why? Why give me the dream last night? Why let me remember him? Stupid flashbacks, memories came pouring back into my mind. All the things he have caused me, oh man, why? Why can't I forget about him? Maybe because he's the only guy I've ever been closest to. I seldom go out, maybe I'm just naive. I'm sure in his heart, I'm just a girl who was once his best friend but not anymore. I do regret ever telling him, maybe I could've just liked him and never said anything about it. But won't that be worse? I guess I kinda ruined our friendship, but because of my childish confession, I saw who he really was.
Well, guess there's nothing else to say. I guess he's always gonna be in my heart no matter what, guess I just have to live with it. I guess that's life, remembering someone who have made you happy yet harmed you. I'm still curious, am I still a part of his life? Does he still think about me? Was I just some stupid girl who had a crush on him? Well, guess I'll never know because I'll never have the courage to even say a "hi" to him. Destiny, stop playing me!
